《牛虻》读后感
高流小学 赵晓建
看完了《牛虻》，我久久不能平静。
我不能想出有任何其他的结局来取代这一看似注定的悲剧。深沉的，有如宿命一般。虽是肉体的毁灭，却是灵魂的永生。我不能记起看过哪部小说有如此震惊、痛苦、惶惑而又释然！结尾我读了几遍。初读后是极其悲哀的，却似乎是哀叹命运对人的无情捉弄。真是让人难以置信，却是现实，是黑暗的现实。因而，它的悲剧是无法挽回的。虽让人扼腕，却也是最好的结局。读后把全书联系起来深思之后，我深深地被震撼，震撼于一个人的坚强。这更像是一曲伟大英雄的赞歌，一个身体被锤子击得支离破碎，而精神上却比别人坚强的人，难道不值得赞美吗？
“无论我活着，还是我死去，我都是一只快乐的牛虻。”他，算是经历了世上所有的灾难，拖着残损的躯体，却始终快活。因为他看到了希望，看到了他活下去的目标。他不是一个懦弱的人，他把精神上的巨大痛苦深深埋在心中，把他的爱与怨恨一并埋葬，直至末日降临。他对主教深沉的永远无法化解的爱与恨困扰了他一生，也成了他悲剧的根源。神父是他一生最敬重最信赖的人，他曾经奉为神明，直至最终忍不住向神父告别时，他还是满怀希望。可是神父辜负了他的爱，“杀死”了他。在他心中，这一切也是情有可原的，是预料中的事，他如同飞蛾赴火般“成功”地结束了自己的生命。
在这一悲剧中，另一个人，却不禁引起我的尊敬与伶悯，那便是
蒙泰尼里教士。他生平也许只做过一件错事，但他却虔诚地用他的一生来忏悔。他是众矢之的的“敌人”，却因慈爱善良而不失为一个圣人。圣人千虑，必有一失。我想造成他一生悲苦的也许是年轻时犯下的那桩“罪”。这桩罪所付出的代价也太大了！他同牛虻两个人一生的幸福和最后的毁灭，同类的故事在教会世界中并非少见。如《十日谈》中所述，一个教士如不犯七宗罪中的任一条，反倒是不可思议的了。也许，正因为他是个如此善良的人 ，便注定他要负“债”一生。他与亚瑟母亲都是善良而虔诚的人，这便也造成了亚瑟天性悯人，嫉恶如仇，坚持正义不动摇的性格。他最终的选择是合情合理的。如果换上我，我也必定做出同样的选择，不得不把自己最心爱的人送上断头台，最终导致自己的精神崩溃。当他领悟到现实真相后，他悔恨不已，在他疯狂地砸下圣像之后，他选择了死亡。这也是他最好的归宿。于是，他也如牛虻一样获得了解脱。他最终跟随心爱的儿子去了。余下的人们，我想他们都将继承他的遗愿坚定不移地走下去。要革命少不了流血，能让“圣子的鲜血”唤醒那些沉睡的民众，这便是那些仁人志士肝脑涂地而在所惜的原由。
琼玛也是个极让我尊敬的人。她的沉着冷静，她的坚定不移和深明大义，都无愧于牛虻对她的执着的爱。然而，她也承受着多年的悔恨。她永生也忘不了那个从童年时代就一直印在脑海中的名字。逝者已矣，生者可追！我相信琼玛会更加执着地顽强地战斗下去。前进吧！为了自由。——《牛虻》一书也使我看到了自己的渺小。为死亡所缠绕的肉体和灵魂是何其痛苦，我们有什么理由为身边那一点点轻如尘
埃的小事而埋怨、哀叹！没有什么事能使我们放弃对信仰的追求与生之希望，没有什么沟壑是不能逾越的！只要你找到了前进的方向，你为什么还要停滞不前呢？我的太阳到底在哪里呢？难道世俗便是真理、便是希望吗？第一个走出这一步的人固然是艰难的，但是，再困难也得朝前走，即使没有志同道合的人，甚至有人嘲讽与阻挠，也要坚定地走下去！有什么让你瞻前顾后犹豫不决呢？……
第二篇：牛虻读后感(英文版)
Whether I'm alive
Or I die
I have been a gadfly
A happy fly
This poem, is the final writing, writing it, he was on the line, and then he died. He died very hard, because he has to soldier, was so loved him, they took the tremulous gun hand, their tears in the cheeks, but they still have to kill him, that is the work. In countless bullet sound, gadfly is dead, all in the play, but the dead so strong, so bright.
China looks at his son's death, he had killed him, he is in God, and sons,
decided to choose the false god, gave up so miserable and so need loving son. He was destined to regret their decisions, he was destined to be your crazy, finally, great cardinal or crazy, or dead, God is not the God of mercy, not because of his loyalty and loyalty to him.
Arthur is poor, Qiongma a slap him from Italy to South America, many years of suffering, he put down, finally, he returned to Italy, he saw Qiongma, they love each other, but not forever. He died, she cried in pain, he all the time, she was also suffering. And as she know he is still alive, she can be relieved, she can forget their past mistakes, he once again living dead in front of her.
Arthur was 17 years old, know God is just a hammer to knock out the clay sculpture, his beloved Padre lied to him, God is not a god of compassion, one can rely on, only yourself. Arthur in trouble and became a fully-fledged atheist, he hated the hypocrisy of prayer, hate all priests, but he knows that, in any case, he still loves the Padre, he doesn't hate him, as long as the Padre to spend the rest of my life to love him, he will be satisfied, he will be happy. But China does not do so, he cried, cry very sad, but his choice is still God, only god ... ...
As the great cardinal, choose God is behoove, Christ was crucified, he is
destined to be merciful, he was acceptable to all confession, and he can do, is only the acceptance of the confession. He is not what people do, he can't, he couldn't save China, more save Arthur. But China does not know, never know, the way he treated his own son, is very unfair, but he did not know God, he was puzzled by his mind, only the empty god.
When China finally wakes up, you must face the heaven or hell of the God, and he will say, he still love God? Also keep your faith? He would regret it, will be.
He will see, and the God was broken into pieces, he will put the heart away from God, he really loves, is his son. But all this is already late, heaven is infinitely high, hell is a bottomless, he 'll never find his beloved son ... ... Once again the confession?
Then ... ...
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