在冲突中建立起的人生
——《所罗门之歌》读后感
无需赘言,这是一部充满了冲突的小说。小说对黑人主人公奶娃的孩提时代只用了极短的篇幅,我想这大概也与冲突有关。在我们还是小孩子的时候也许会和我们的父母、朋友闹别扭,但我想,绝大多数都上升不到冲突这个层面。但是,在奶娃成人以后,冲突便迎面而来。无论是父母、姐妹、朋友乃至“女友”,好像只要你与他人接触,冲突便不可避免。
有一天,似乎顺理成章的,虽然他处于一个富裕的家庭之中,这一切的冲突仍旧在奶娃与他挚友吉他的谈话中爆发出来,“我只知道我想过自己的生活。我再也不想当我家老头子的办公室助手了。而要是我呆在这里不走,我就得接着干下去。除非我自己有了钱。我只能离开那个家,在我走的时候也不想欠谁什么。我那个家简直要把我逼疯了。我爹想让我成为他那样得人,他还恨我母亲。我母亲想让我和她往一处想,她也恨我父亲。科林西安丝(大姐)不跟我说话;莉娜(二姐)想让我走开。而哈格尔想把我拴到她床上,要不就想让我死。人人都对我有诉求,你明白我的意思吗?他们想从我这儿得到从别处弄不到的东西。他们以为我有。我也不知道那是什么——我是说他们到底是想要什么。”
当汹涌的波涛向人们扑来时,再强壮的人也承受不了那因质量的叠加而形成的巨大冲击力。因此,不难想象奶娃在种种冲突的重重压力下采取的是一种躲避的方式——出走。但为了完全与那些他不想面
对的冲突真正一刀两断,他决定去寻找姑妈的“金子”,让自己拥有可以脱离他人经济物质支撑的能力。当然,在我看来,这是一个再正常不过的选择,但也正是这一选择——寻找,开启了奶娃不一样的人生。
在寻找“金子”的过程中,奶娃也遭遇了不少的事与冲突。一位黑人司机好心给奶娃搭便车,奶娃觉得口渴便讨了可乐喝。但在下车时,奶娃却提出要付钱,引起了那人的大为不满。更有甚者,在一个黑人农村里因奶娃一句坏掉的车就不要了,引起了当地黑人的不满,便与奶娃干起架来。这些在奶娃看来十分正常的举动却在别的黑人眼中令人十分恼怒。这样一种鲜明的由物质而引起的冲突似乎是作者在告诉我们,无论是何种形式的冲突,或多或少都与物质上的充裕而造成的精神上的匮乏有关。
当然,在寻找中不只是有冲突,奶娃也在不断接近他的故乡,他的根源。在他祖父所居住过的土地上,奶娃通过对于有关他家族的歌谣的探索,逐步发现了他姓氏的根源,也让他了解到他所寻找的“金子”其实装是他祖父骨灰的瓦罐。最为重要的是他了解到了黑人会飞这一黑人神话所带给他的归属感,并填补了他精神上的空白。
小说的结尾也不可避免的在冲突中结束。误以为奶娃私吞了金子的吉他要置奶娃于死地,却误杀了与奶娃一同回到故乡安置祖父骨灰的姑妈,但这一次奶娃没有逃避,在山谷中他向吉他跳了过去,飞翔在空中,小说便在这“真实”的黑人会飞中结束了。
但我们不得不问,为什么奶娃会有这样的转变。毫无疑问,转变在于他寻找金子却不断寻找自己的根源中。在我看来,那根源是一种
信仰,奶娃找到了他的信仰。民谣唤回了美国黑人对于遥远故土的记忆,也凝聚起黑人的精神诉求,“这是人民的各种信仰、家庭与民族历史的储存处”。而对于奶娃来说,他拥有了新的人生方向或者说是生活的意义。纵观整部小说,其中的冲突在与亲情、友情、爱情乃至种族,以至于在物质发展急速的今天,我们如何解决精神上的匮乏。奶娃的寻找与其说是寻找自我,不如说是寻找解决这些冲突的方式。最终他找到了,找到他这个家族的信仰,找到了黑人这个种族的信仰。他将之化为自身的依靠,依循这信仰,他面对并去尝试解决冲突。
对于我们每个人来说,我们离不开社会,离不开他人。在这个充满冲突的社会与人生中,我们如何有一片立足之处,如何在冲突中成长,建立起我们自己所向往的人生,或许,拥有一个让我们有归属感、能支撑起我们的精神家园的信仰是必不可少的。
第二篇:罗兰之歌读后感
Song of Roland
---- Another brave heart I still remembered that the film brave heart describes a solemn and stirring scene of Scottish people’s revolt against England in history. William in my mind is always an eternal role that could devoted himself bravely to love and freedom, Although the film and different from the Song of Roland. Of course William from Roland too, just because their mission is not consistent. But I always put the two of them together imperceptibly. Perhaps they have similar qualities----They all are heroes. Now putting Roland into the song , you will feel Roland’s soul exists anywhere and then we come to see this great epic----Song of Roland.
Song of Roland, the epic of European medieval France , is One of the most outstanding epics about medieval heroes. It through the shape of Roland image to reflects the spirit of The medieval times and people’s thinking about themselves under the Christian culture background. Also reflects the transformation of the notional heroes to some extent. All those ale based on and transcend Christian ideology.
From the Song of Roland, I’ve seen the three points which is devout belief in God,patriotism and loyalty to the king,worship of heroes that inevitably mentioned and form the
whole framework ultimately .
Religious ideas reflected in the works is the process to historical facts .Many scenes were depicted with religious color portraits. To outward seeming , Roland is a Christian hero image. But his real meaning has exceeded the religious significance far away.
Being in the patriotic aspect, He is a really perfectionist. His heroism can be seen everywhere .Until the last, dying Roland still missing the lovely France and his emperor----Charles. This is what a noble action.
We also can feel that the praise of Roland from people reflects the worship of heroes. Roland always shows his enthusiasm for fighting. In the Song production of the image of Roland ,it reflects the spirit of the times of the Middle Ages.
Roland is a hero belongs to European medieval ages. He worships god, but did not lost himself. This image is pregnant with the spirit of the thought of the middle ages. on the other side ,we can also see Roland faults such as stubborn and capricious. In short, Roland is still the example are worthy emulating and would inspire me to go forward forever.